Hello everyone! I hope you all are doing well. I am sharing with you all a poem post about a fallout friendship. I wrote this a while back and thought I would share it with you all. It is quite personal and I hope you all enjoy reading it. If you guys want to see more poem posts like this one, please let me know and I will continue to write them.
Did you learn something?
You and I were inseparable.
You took me out of a dark moment in my life and shined the sun over me.
You gave me a long-lasting friendship.
I gained a best friend.
But I lost myself.
It was just the two of us.
We started to add mutual friends to put group.
When our group of friends got bigger, you were unhappy.
I wondered why?
You were jealous.
You were mad when I hung out with friends at dinner.
You were upset when I was working trying to support my family.
You said negative comments about what I bought or looked like.
You got mad at me when I asked how you were doing.
You belittled me.
Your ego took over your happy and friendly aurora.
You never apologized for your actions and always blamed it on me.
I could never be proud of myself.
I couldn’t have friends outside our circle.
I had to be your only friend.
Did you ever care for me?
Did you hope that we would be friends forever?
Did it cross your mind that one day I wouldn’t want to be friends with you?
Did you ever feel guilty for what you did to me?
You took away my light and I was your shadow.
Sure, I wasn’t perfect either.
I was indecisive.
I was a follower.
I was too nice.
I wasn’t myself.
Yes, there were good times.
When we would talk for hours about everything.
When we would go out shopping, bowling, or to the movies.
I laughed uncontrollably when I was with you.
I was there for you.
After nine years of fallout friendships,
I thought I finally found my best friend.
I had someone that cared about me and my existence.
I had someone that would always be there for me.
So, I thought…
We parted ways. I didn’t want to talk to you at graduation.
All those people you used to trash talk about, ended up being your friends.
I was nothing to you.
I was just a crumbled-up piece of paper in the trash.
You were the basket.
Swallowing my pride, my weaknesses, and my fears.
Acting like everything will be okay with us.
We learned a lot in high school, but one thing I learned was who my true friends are.
I have two best friends that would take bullets for me.
I found myself.
As I close this chapter, I just want to say thank you.
Thank you for giving me the best times in my life.
Thank you for also putting me down.
I learned a lot about myself and my future friendships.
I hope you can too.
Thank you all so much for reading this post! I love posting my poems on my blog and I absolutely love the feedback I receive from them as well, you guys are always supportive. You can follow me on Pinterest and Instagram @helpfulinspiringblog. If you need to contact me, please email me at: helpfulinspiringblog@gmail.com. I hope you all have a great rest of your week and I will see you soon!
-Sonia